Blurness

2009-11-06T11:52:00.003+08:00

announcement

2007-02-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

sadly blogger have choosen to boycott me... therefore have shifted blog to http://www.iamblur.wordpress.com

back from johor

2007-01-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

Went to johor on sat noon cos my cousin was getting married the drive there was so tiring wei... ZZZzzz... Now i now how taxing driving long distance can be...
shall talk about it later when i feel more energetic ya... lack of zzz for a few days due to sleeping on sofas fro 2days in a row... But well...

I cant believe this

2007-01-19T12:07:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had lecturers asking stupid questions and not teaching according to syllabus??? Have you ever had lecturers not come into class gives the lamest excuse and then blame the rest of it on you and your class??? I have… I so miss the first semester lecturers wei…
First, we had an irritating pjk l who ss so much in class and forces students to speak up in class even though you have nothing to share at all… Asking you are you married??? Sneezing, coughing, moving are signs that you want to speak in class-_-“
Then came an even weirder L… Lets call her F… I’ve never ever seen a lecturer this “hardworking” in my entire life wei… We’ve already had 5 3hr long classes with her and all we did was 2unfortunate slides… The rest of the time was used for her “experience” sharing… Think ss (when she was younger… when she was still studying… wth)… But the worst thing happened on thurs… We had to wait for 2 and a ½ hrs just for her and when we went of for lunch you couldn’t imagine what we saw… We saw her at dataran E sitting on the stairs…getting a massage from a group of her wantan students and happily closing her eyes indulging in the highness… WTH… Made us wait for her for so long just cos she wanted a massage… OMG…
Then at the last 15min of that class… She went back and said… I went for a meeting with my boss… (erm, when you had class)… Then the floor was calling her loud… (OMG… she can hear floors… OMG OMG… teach me teach me…) and the worst thing was I came back and only saw 10people in class, so disappointing (ooo… 2hrs plus of waiting is not disappointing and the last few minutes is… WTH)… Haiz… And of all things we have her for every sem starting from this one… At least now I know where the attitude of some teachers come from… Their lecturers… Wth…

Ponggol festival

2007-01-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

For once my room mates and I didn’t need to be forced to join an event in college. Usually we’ll have to be dragged down by our families just to go down for an event… This time we even joined the ponggol rice cooking competition… I didn’t even know that I’ve registered for that event until my room mates told me that I’m not to go out of college on Tue… -_-“ BTW the both of them also haven’t ever tried cooking rice with an open fire before and what more say to start a fire… OMG…

Anyway, when the event started they didn’t even know what twigs to choose first… Haiz… Suddenly I felt that guide’s knowledge have some usage after all… Hehehe… In the end we didn’t win cause the speed of the milk thing didn’t boil as fast as the other group… But well, we joined for s.s so it doesn’t matter that much anyway… hehehe…

Saw my course mates dance for that night… Wow, loved the way R danced wif S… It was nice and cute… Jinni was declared the miss ponggol and mr ponggol was I don’t know who hehehe…

cc trip

2007-01-19T11:23:00.000+08:00

Now that I’m finally back from cc trip I’ve got loads of souvenirs to show off… There were tons of leeches jumping around when we when hiking… Therefore, leech bites were found on my thighs, hands and arms… Haiz… What a blood donation wei. Btw, I went for blood donation last week that was held in kps… Had to wait for 3-4hours just to donate blood wei… Could you imagine how many people were there… Anyway, back to the cc trip… The trip was quite boring and lagging since it was raining it was the most luxurious camp after the cf camp I went in f5… They had chalets equipped with heaters and air condition… Food there was however typical local spicy food… But well, since when camps became so luxurious or probably I’m too used to uniform bodies camps…

Update about life and the second semester

2007-01-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

I’m finally back after 2months of computer breakdown and net line problem… the 2nd semester had a very jumpy head start. I miss the lecturers from the first semester… I’m not sure it’s me or it’s the fact that the lecturers that I got for this semester are mostly s.s (syok sendiri). There are only two lecturers that I could stand at the moment… The teaching about prose and the grammar one… The rest talks so much about themselves so much that a 3hour class can be used to teach just a mere page… Haiz… I really wonder how great this semester will become…
Have to wake up at 6something these days due to 8o’clock classes every morning, but fortunately I don’t have to walk to class anymore because a course mate of mine have shifted out of college and drove to uni… Yet lunch has to be skipped due to lack of money and lack of time to return to college just for lunch…
Sleep deprivation is getting more and more serious by day… There seems to be not much time for naps anymore unlike the previous semester where we get loads of time very everything…
Don’t feel like going for the cc trip that I’ve paid for a few months ago… Hmm the ugre of going seems to have vanished into thin air… Furthermore, I had to miss the sevonders gathering just because of that stupid trip… I’ve also just found out that digi cannot be used at that area while maxis have a weak signal… How how haiz…

erm usin com fr library heheh

2006-11-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

Havent been goin out wif someone n i miss that loads... Hardly been able to go out wif u during hols sorry, shall make it up 2u when uni starts ya...
Sorry cant make it 4ur thing tmr ya yj...
The jap exam thing is driving me nuts...
Too much to learn to little time left...
Argh... Blame it on my procrasination i guess...
Better go b4da librarian catches me usin the com for things other than searching for books hehehe

I'm still here mind you...

2006-11-28T14:17:00.000+08:00

To those who thought i've disappeared into thin air...
The fact is i havent...
Just that im running extremely low on credit
and that im seldom at home
and my com is at the sick bay
So the bottomline is that im still alive
and have not disappeared...hehehe

wish me luck...

2006-11-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

exams shall be starting on 4Nov...
shall stop blogging till 16Nov i guess...
wish me luck...
wish me the best yar...
darn freaked out now...
ish ish... the usual roo to freak out like mad before exams but well...
well...
well...
hope i'll survive yar...

Reflecting on life 5yrs ago...

2006-11-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

FIVE YEARS AGO...
2001
How old were you?:
15
Where did you go to school?
Tmn SEA
Where did you work?
nowhere
Where did you live?
Bandar Utama
Where did you hang out?
erm at home... purely nerd...
How was your hair style?
erm short and weird...
Did you wear braces?
Not yet...
Did you wear glasses?
yupz... still do...
Who was your best friend?
jane loke
Who was your regular-person crush?
hehehe...
Who was your celebrity crush?
erm... think think... hmmmm... dont rmb liao
How many tattoos did you have?
none
How many piercings did you have?
none
What car did you drive?
do bus no 11 count???
What was your favorite band/group?
backstreet boys
What was your worst fear?
heights
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
nope n dont plan to
Had you driven yet?
nope
Had you been arrested?
nope
Had you been to a real party yet?
erm... erm...erm...do birthday parties count???
Had your heart broken?
nope... still in one piece
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
single doesnt mean desperately avalible

LETS SEE WHAT YOUARENOW !!!!!
**NOW
2006
How old are you?
20
What grade are you in?
degree
Where do you go to school?
UM
Where do you work?
PDI
Where do you live?
In BU and in college...
Where do you hang out?
1U my second home...
Do you have braces?
Took it off a few yrs back
Do you wear glasses?
occasionally but not often
Who is your best friend?
JL(yj), JM and the list goes on and on...
Still talk to any of your old friends?
Yupz...
Who is your celebrity crush?
Erm... erm... i dun fall in luv wif ppl i dunno...
How many piercings do you have?
2... 1 on each earlobe... Its still piercings right...
How many tattoos?
none
What kind of car do you have?
still bus no 11
What is your favorite band/group?
erm i listen to songs randomly these days...
What is your biggest fear?
lonely, deserted, cheated...
Have you been arrested since?
nearly got summons
Has your heart been broken?
still in one piece
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
taken

vain post alert...

2006-10-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG… Roo is getting fatter… OMG fat roo fat fat roo… How how… Even though got food poisoning last week yet it hasn’t seemed to reduce my weight a bit… Hmmm… Furthermore at the moment I’m in full sitting mode… Exams are coming what you expect… Have finally started to hit the books… Hmmm… Flipping books are quite the same as reading them right… Hmmm… As usual I the extreme procrastinator only start hitting the books after forcing myself a great deal… A good thing there’s someone to be by my side at all times this time… Or else would have drowned and died in the books that I haven’t start reading… Really really hope that I can get 3.5or at least some where near it… My uni’s family’s “mommy” got a 3.7something during her first sem and apparently she didn’t study that much… Daddy got even better results… OMG… EH mommy got 2nd best in her Jap course last year… OMG… Aces was flying everywhere in her result sheet while aces seemed to be flying away in mine… how how… I wanna get some ace as well… Hmmm… Do leave some for me ya… I WANT THE POINTS I WANT the results… hmmm… The usual greedy roo eh… Hmmm… But I doubt I even have enough time to cramp in every single thing that I’ve studied or went past my head in someway during classes…. Really really hope I’ll be able to do well… Hmmmm… But am I doing enough… Nope definitely not… Haiz…

Lets see what I’ve been doing during the first week of study week…. I know study week doesn’t mean taking a break from our studies… Thursday and Friday… Slacking and sleeping… Saturday and Sunday… Working… Monday half dead due to food poisoning… Tuesday and Wednesday… Working… Thursday… sleeping… Friday happily went out… lalala… Saturday work and then went out… Lalala… Made some one miss his match again… Hehehe… Sunday… Work and then slept at 8something till the next morning… At times I do wonder how sleep deprived I actually am??? At times I sleep as if I haven’t been sleeping for a week… What’s wrong with me… Hmmm…

ni na me ai ta

2006-10-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

Its especially for some to get somethings from it ya... Hope that person can get it... hehehe
直到爱消失你才懂得去珍惜
身边每个美好风景只是它早已离去
直到你想通他早已经不再对你留恋
最后的你开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
为什床凰敌睦锘?
你深爱她这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

Did you guys miss me??? Did you??? Did you???

2006-10-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

Have unfortunately deserted my poor blog for quite a long time… Its now study week and what have I been doing??? Looking back I haven’t been studying and have been slacking a little too mush… OMG OMG… How how only a week left…
TITAS zzz…
Method…hmmm
Lit… Hmmm
Linguistics… How far have I went… *wonders
Writing about lit… Hmm still got so long more to go…

Can hardly even write properly at the moment wonder why… Dreamt that I did very badly in exams two nights ago omg…. Bad omen… Die die… How how…

23/10
How fortunate of my to get food poisoning… Suffered the entire day when I was awake that is… I slept for 18-19consequtive hours… Can you actually believe that???
Happy 4month anniversary ya… Lol….

Tired and rather frustrated

2006-10-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

Sleep deprivation getting more and more serious
Temper rising, blame it on the weather
Work load rising to the max, yet insufficient brain cells
Currently facing assignment’s writer’s block
Down counting less than a month before exams, haven’t started on anything yet
To think that I never paid any attention during titas and KM… OMG…
2thick books to memorize back to back
Getting into more and more arguments in every aspect…
I’m so dead…
Financial crisis as well… NO point asking why…
From a sufficient portion and going less by month… Haiz…
Still working… But getting into arguments due to working but not because of the people in the workplace…
Its getting really saddening…
Another assignment due on Tue and I don’t even have sufficient information about the thing to compile it into a booklet cos they haven’t pass me the whole stack… OMG…
Tmr night shall be sleepless again…
Wonder how long would it take to make me go bonkers…
Roo’s life going down again…
Whee… What a roller coaster…
Better start studying… But somethings just interferes cos it has an important place in me…
Wth…
Haiz…

Fun fair

2006-10-05T10:37:00.000+08:00

So touched and suprised when you suddenly popped out during my break...
Was even more touched when you waited for 3hours till i finish work...
Went to the fun fair in 1U...
The ride was fun... Hmmm so many rounds till i lost count...
But the ghost house was -_-"
I still cant believe that you manage to win such a large teddy...
People dont normally win things in fun fair wei...
Thanks loads ya...
Still in dazed mode hehehe...
Teddy now sitting on the clothes rack due to the excessive fur dropping syndrom...
Hmmm... found put that the teddy is worth bout 55...
But to me its priceless eh...

Senior freshie night

2006-10-05T10:15:00.000+08:00

29 Sept
Finally the night is here...
After facing a stupid idiot who can only talk but cant do work for the past month finally we have got over it...
No more meetings and i've now got nothing to do with that stupid idiot...
Hmph... Talk so much yet never lend a hand to anyone of the committee members...
What a good president can that be... Haiz...
Hmmm...
Started to cut watermelons and preparing drinks since 3...
Then came the part where we have to collect the food...
Not so tiny car filled with pots and pans...
Not even sufficent space for us to sit properly...
LY sat on my lap and R had to fold her legs and have a heavy pot sat on her...
Hmmm... LY is not so light after all...
The 15minute ride was a torture...
Was so busy the entire night with the food that i missed all the entertainment on... Haiz...
After the event ended we had to go back to college just to wash up the pots and pans... Ish ish...
Hmmm... Found out that R is an extremely respondsible person... She's very nice as well...

Happy belated belated birthday

2006-10-05T10:10:00.000+08:00

CK sorry ar...
Living two doors away yet not wishing you...
Happy belated birthday ya...
Got your laptop infected by virus pula...
Argh...
What more disaster can i cause...
So sorry girl...

Happy belated belated birthday

2006-09-26T10:18:00.000+08:00

23/9
Happy 3rd month anniversary... Food at Vivo not bad... Can go there to eat again in future... Whee... Miami Vice is not bad as well... Whee...

24/9
Filled with lies but its all white lies so it doesn't count...
As long as you had fun...
Wow can't believe that he actually did so much for you...
Heart melts...
Hope you had fun...

Busy busy

2006-09-26T09:58:00.000+08:00

Have been way too busy to update blog these days...
Will be going on9 less and less cos i'll be working during weekends...
If you happen to go 1U during the weekends do come visit me ya...
Keep in touch...

Met up with a friend last night...
Take care ya...
Be strong, remember that we'll alwaya be by your side...

I owe you big time

2006-09-07T19:39:00.000+08:00

Thanks loads ya... I feel bad for using you in a way... I feel really bad... But i had a great time... Thanks loads ya... YJ thanks...

Eda's Wedding

2006-09-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

Two tables… Sitting at the same table with the marketing can be extremely intimidating and yet funny at the same time… Those were the people I tried my best to keep a distance when I was working in PDI… They were extremely sarcastic wei… I learnt a few things yesterday… “Choi sum” are supposed to be food for tortoise and the anatomy of the “choi sum” have kindly been shown properly and discussed by the table -_-“… The only food they eat for a steamboat is fish, prawns and jagung…The rest are counted as weird food-_-“…
Didn’t talk much to most of the people because it was rather hard to? Was really really happy for Eda… At least she found some one she loved and that person loves her back… Wishing her happiness always…

Missing you… How have you guys been doing…

2006-09-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

I miss the good old days… The good old form 5, form 6 days… Its not that my uni life suck… Its just that there’s a chemistry between us that cannot be compared to those in uni... The feeling is just different… Was listening to da cheng xiao ai and xian zai hen xiang jian ni… Was chatting with Lish just now and made me felt the distance and yet the near at heart feel… Msn is just not my choice of chatting… Its fun to talk crap there but to catch up… There’s just a barrier some where… Erm… At least that’s how I feel…
YJ even though I just met up with you a few weeks ago but it definitely don’t seem enough… Remember last time when we would talk on the phone for hours even though we met in school… Even our parents will be extremely puzzled about the amount of time we spend talking together… So near yet so far…
Mun… I so miss talking to you… Never on the phone though… Erm don’t ask me why… Remember the times where we see each other so much that it’s a wonder that we don’t get sick of each other… The times at Redang… The times when we were in class, working… “Xian Zai Hen Xiang Jian Ni”… Voice SMS is fun but in person its better eh… hehehe
Li Shawn… Shopping kaki and chatting kaki… Even though there’s msn but it just feels so different… I miss you… Reading your blog only keeps me updated with your life and it still feels different… It’s been a while since I really really talked to you…
Pei Kuan… Used to talk to you a lot when you were sitting behind me in F4,F5… Remember the time you called me through your hp and used up about RM20… Those were the days eh… You are leaving for UK soon and I’ll definitely be missing you loads…
Hui Xian… I love confronting you when I have any problems no matter how big how small… You’re always the best listener and provides the best advice… You are another one that is so near yet so far… Wanted to meet up with you when I went to Monash 2weeks ago yet… Well…
Suet Yee…Was so shocked when you called me from Australia the last time… Really appreciate that… Chatting sessions have been cut quite short compared to last time but still… I miss the time when we go for bowling club together and I’ll go to your house and all… I missed the “party” thing we had at your house for YJ and Lish’s birthday…
Peik Yoke… Wasn’t that close to you until the Redang trip where it made us the “negative clan” due to our blurness and a wee bit of stupidity… But still… I missed the fun and the days in Redang even though it was rather short… Remember the boat rides??? Remember those acting as floating corpse days…
Chai Kun… Even though you are just two rooms away and its rather pathetic to say that I should be counted lucky and happy that I actually see you at the corridor once in a week… Remember those camps… The nights spent staring into the sky… The days you were sitting behind me in F2… Thank god for those weekly yumcha eh…
Elane… The days where you sat beside me during lower 6 and then in front of me during upper 6… There was so much to talk about so much to share… It’s a good thing we have those weekly yum cha sessions… If not…
Wen Teng… Was in the same class as you since F1… So many stories to listen to so much to share… It’s good to have those yumcha sessions…
Sean Im... Shopping kaki come back ar... These days you don't even blog... Don't even know how you are now...
Tan Foong… Same uni yet I haven’t seen you since after Yue’s birthday party… Only saw you that once in uni when you were happily in the car and the unfortunate me walking by towards DTC… Weiwei… Where’s my lift hmmm… I miss those camp nights… Those days in Redang… Play “chor dai di” till we wanted to vomit blood right… Wakaka…
Qian Yue… Haven’t seen or speak to you since you went to USM… Heard you come back every week yet never had the chance to meet up with you…
Swee Keng… You punctuality has always amazed me yet… It’s been quite some time since I really really talked to you… Seen you quite a few times yet… Hardly had the chance to really get into an in depth conversation…
Sooi Kuan… The other sk eh… The one who at times I can’t agree with… But yet a close friend… In UM at the last time I saw you was during the PTPTN thing… You are getting so busy and blaming me for ignoring you? Haiz…When you are free tell me lor we go yumcha k… But don’t ask me to go fetch you k… No transport o…
And the list goes on and on…
I miss my school life… But when I go back to Taman Sea I find that some things there have changed and the memories there shall always always be precious…
P/S a statement to a friend… No matter what happen now or in future… I am still me and will still be me… Nothing will change me and our friendship… Having some one special will not interfere with friendships k… Please let the topic of us rest when we meet up… It should be girls night out right… ;)

第一次亲密的接触

2006-09-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

第一次亲密的接触

“ 如果我有一千萬，我就能買一棟房子。
我有一千萬嗎？沒有。
所以我仍然沒有房子。
如果我有翅膀，我就能飛。
我有翅膀嗎？沒有。
所以我也沒辦法飛。
如果把整個太平洋的水倒出，也澆不熄我對妳愛情的火燄。
整個太平洋的水全部倒得出嗎？不行。
所以我並不愛妳。
”

“ 如果我還有一天壽命，那天我要做你女友。
我還有一天的命嗎？..沒有。
所以，很可惜。我今生仍然不是你的女友。

如果我有翅膀，我要從天堂飛下來看你。
我有翅膀嗎？..沒有。
所以，很遺憾。我從此無法再看到你。

如果把整個浴缸的水倒出，也澆不熄我對你愛情的火燄。
整個浴缸的水全部倒得出嗎？..可以。
所以，是的。我愛你...

輕舞飛揚 ”

我輕輕地舞著，在靜謐的天堂之中。

天使們投射過來異樣的眼神。

詫異也好，欣賞也罷。

並不曾使我的舞步凌亂。

因為令我飛揚的，不是天使們的目光。

而是我的青蛙王子。

the story is extremely touching... *melts...

The difference between carnations and roses...xp

2006-08-31T19:54:00.000+08:00

rose
carnation

Yuk Chai Reunion

2006-08-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

Great job to those who contacted the people ya... Its been quite a long time since we had so many people… Hmmm how many years ago was that… *wonders…
On the participants
The girls look lovely… There are big changes in most of them they all look so pretty now… Hmmm and I’m like… Well... Nvm… The guys however, some didn’t change much but some gained weight some seemed to have grown taller… But other than that they are still pretty much the same. Or maybe its just that I’ve seen quite a number of them recently.
On the venue
OMG… JD your house is a mansion wei… More like a small fortress… You should have look at the entrance door, I bet it is as tall as 2kiashors. There’s a Japanese style pond, Bali style pond, swimming pool, Jacuzzi, sauna… There’s even a panic room omg… The interior was even nicer even the toilets come in themes… Not forgetting the walk in wardrobe and bathtub… I so want one wei… but well… Humans should be contented with what ever they have… So JD if you read this do know that I’m now darn green with envy but I’m happy with where I’m staying at o…
On the games
Whee… I’ve just been teleported back to standard six where we play murder games… I was the murderer twice in a row k… I didn’t even know how to act anymore… The first game HS kept insisting that the murderer was me and fortunately no one believed him until the last part of the game… Hmmm… Maybe my innocent looking face and eyes did the job again eh… HS xP… Nvm I killed you again during the second round right… Walala… JD I’m innocent k… I didn’t kill you… I’m innocent!!! The game got a little boring by the end cos it became rather lagging…
On the surprise
Lisa bought a cake to the reunion and can’t think of anything better to do with it so they decided to celebrate anyone’s birthday… EH’s birthday was around the corner so there was a small surprise celebration for him…

Didn’t really get to talk to everyone but still had fun I guess even though it was rather boring at times… Cam whoring session was fun as usual… Wei wei… We never seem to succeed to get any nice pictures properly eh…. Hmmm… Nvm… There’s always next time right….

Its been 2months

2006-08-23T11:40:00.000+08:00

Even though we never seem to be able to go out on the anniversary days due to me... Hehehe... But well got a long way more to go right :)

Do Ignore My Emotional State...

2006-08-20T21:02:00.001+08:00

I am not as strong as I thought…
I feel weak in studies…
As though I’m not catching up…
But the fact is there are no way for me to know…
Uni is way different from school…
There are no monthly tests to test on your proficiency…
I start to question my knowledge…
I start to… I don’t know… I’m getting slightly on the emotional side…
I need to get the results…
I have to… I desperately need to… But I’m not sure can I…
I did better stop procrastinating,
Start studying, start checking my spelling and grammar
Start developing the red pen syndrome…
Start speaking in fluent and correct English…
At times even your favorite subject can turn into pain…
Its not chronic pain its more like the pain on your behind…
I don’t feel like a teacher act like one anyway…
So how… Am I in the wrong course I don’t know…
I know I will not fail it but will I score… I don’t know
There’s no way to know because there aren’t any mediums to show you how you did…
There’s only the main exam which is more like the matter of life and death…
I’m ok I’m just unsure about how am I doing so far that’s all…
I will never be the top scorer but I don’t want to be the last either…

I thought I could control my emotions in a better way…
I thought it will never interfere with my brain waves…
I must have ignored the importance…
I didn’t know…
I never knew until today…
I thought my sanity level was higher…
But well…
One thing for sure…
It interferes no matter you want it to or not…

A friend’s getting married…
Hmm…
The rest make it seem to be a not so good thing due to some stuff…
But I seem to be so happy for her no doubt I didn’t show it that much…
I’m more like excited to see her get married… hmm… wonder why…
2Sept… whee…

Well... well... so much happened this week

2006-08-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

To a friend
Love is patient love is kind
Things happen when you least expect it to
There will be miracles, when you believe
Dreams can come true
When chances come,
If you don’t grasp it’ll just go away,
But if you grasp it more roads will be paved and opened…
Everyone wants love to be now and forever it may happen and it may not,
But with effort and time it may…
If it fails, it’s because you took a chance,
If it succeeds, it’s because you grasped the opportunity…

Well, well so much happened this week…

Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday night was unfortunately spent with Senior Freshie night meeting… The amount of time spent for these meetings are getting on my nerves. This is not due the number of meetings but because even with the amount of meetings and time spent its still going nowhere… Bah…

Thursday was way better… Class was shortened from 3hours to an hour class due to the lecturer’s morning sickness… Then went to Cathay cineleisure in Mutiara Damansara… The cinema was not bad I guess… But the seat would be better if it didn’t have the tiny slot in the middle… The movie watched was Click… Highly recommended, it so touching and hilarious at the same time… Nick thanks so much for everything… I know I’m bad to make you watch it again since you’ve watched it before…
Went back to college to celebrate Shu Hui’s birthday… She was so touched when her “family” helped her celebrate her birthday. Then ying, rong and I started to scream our wishes from the second floor… Well our sanity level never failed to amuse anyone so never… The entire block practically heard us and our silly antics… You just can’t blame me for being “xiao” k… It wasn’t my fault… I’m innocent and not to be blamed k…
Then came her 2nd birthday celebration… My other 2roomates and I light thhe tiny muffin with 20candles and made it as if there was a tiny fireball in the room… You should have seen Shu Hui’s expression her tears were practically going to slowly leak from her teary eyes… Her touched face was such a pleasing scene to watch… Then all four of us went slightly to the hyper side and yakked away till bout 3something… By the way, we tried the Princess and the pea way to give her the birthday present… It took quite a while to make her feel the present though…

Friday
Went for guides installation and agm… I’m not too sure why I suddenly have the urge to go but well… The installation… Well… Well… There are some things when you leave you should respect the existing board and not give any comments right… Get the picture??? Congrates to Kye Ling and Michelle your effort have been paid off right… Keep up the good work k…
6AT gathering… Due to some miscommunication Elane and Brian came to fetch me while I was already at Jeremy’s house... Tummy was so bloated; the food was so good… Bbq chicken wings, quiche, tons of balls, the pork balls was definitely the best… PPPPPPppppppppppppoooooooorrrrrrrrrrkkk… indulgence… Hmmm what am I talking about… I’m also not too sure…

Whee...

2006-08-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

31/7Mon
Went Baskin Robbins... Had cookies and cream and after eight… Whee… 31%discount... More indulgences which leads to a thicker waist… Taste buds that are rather deprived felt so good after the Old Asia Café’s beef curry as well… MMmmm… Thanks so much for everything… Appreciate it very much love ya for it… Met an old friend and the atmosphere felt weirdly funny due to some circumstances…

2/8Wed
Went for the Chinese Society thing… Wow the performance was so good… They made kungfu look as if it’s done just like that… The “yoyo”players were very well done as well even though there were some slips here and there… The play it was so long winded practically going to put me to sleep… But the acting skills of the actors and actresses it was so real wei… Great job… The drum players… wow wow wow… definitely worth the time and money wei… But I missed the interview for the pesta tang lung… But well…

3/8Thurs
Class was canceled again… Ish ish… But cant blame the lecturer cos she’s pregnant and having a really hard time… Went to the faculty just to send in some homework ish… Then came the better part J
After that went to pasar malam with my family…
CK find out how to join the I Z thing ya…

4/8Fri
Jazz fest was great… Cheese Naan was as well J Thanks for giving me a good time ya… See you guys soon…

BTW… Monkeys are prowling around in college these days… Cant even open the window without fearing that they will jump in to grab our stuff… Ish ish…

KKKC orientation and a little extras...

2006-07-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

24/7
Went ikea J got more soft toys an owl and a teddy… My room mates must be thinking that this girl is crazy cos I now have 2owls, 1teddy, 1girraffe and 1tortoise near my bed… Aiks, starting to feel like an overgrown kid… Was also supposed to go back to college at 9 but ended up extremely late because some people told me they will not be there… Who ya… who ya… Then got lecturered by “mom” for not attending the first family gathering…

25/7
Elane I just cant love you enough for saving us from boredom every Tuesday….

26/7
Met my family… “Mom 1”is a fellow teslian so I’ll get tips on how to prepare for my stuff… Whee… “Mom2” is a 2nd year linguistic student in Jap… Whee she’s now my new Jap sensei… “Dad1” erm… The president of the KKKC orientation… “Dad2” erm… not very sure… The telematch definitely made me reminiscing about the camps that I used to go for… The feeling just came back and made me feel like joining activities again… But this time around I need to prioritize and identify what is more important to me… To sacrifice time for clubs or to save time for important people…

27/7
Closing of KKKC… The performance was -_-“ but our family was a nice one nonetheless… Will be having the first family trip to pasar malam next Thursday… Walala… My family has this sap that goes so well with my fave expression… Whee wang wang whee wang wang whee, whee wang wang whee wang wang whee, BOM!!! Erm sounds odd but so cute… Whee wang wang whee wang wang….

Another week has passed...

2006-07-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

18/7
Class was canceled but had to return to campus to deal with the PTPTN stuff… Queued up for so long till I got rather frustrated… But I got the full loan so I guess queuing up for so long is worth it… A portion of my friends only got a partial loan so I shouldbe very happy right… On the other side… I’ll be in dept for the next 15years… Aiks… I’m not even financially stable and I already owe the government so much money… Gosh… I’m already broke… WTH…
The night was great though… Still can’t thank Miss Sit enough… You definitely made my day… Got to have fun chatting with you guys, got to eat ice cream and got to meet N wakkakaa… So much fun in a day… You also made my room mates extremely happy they were so excited and happy about eating fried oyster… Erm, do keep in mind that we are people who have very deprived taste buds… Foods there aren’t that great k… Edible though…

19/7
There was only one class from 8-9… So I went home after that… Walalala home sweet home… Went to British Council to check some stuff out, but I didn’t really find the place interesting… But I was rather shocked to see the BS guy there… He was planning to enter a course there I guess…

20/7
Went back to college not because I had classes but because I had to help a lecturer out… In the end, no help seemed to be given but got to know a few new people… Was then supposed to go to the library to do some research but something else popped up… Was very happy that it did though Thanks loads…
The pasar malam trip also ended perfectly well... Whee…

22/7
Went to Serdang for dinner with E, WT, B, WH and J… The food there was great, company even better… Wow… My tummy definitely felt fulfilled… Fish never tasted so good… And the best thing is the fish have been de-boned … Pure indulgence… Taste buds have just been reborn…
Then came the better part… I never knew that Putrajaya actually look so fascinating the structures there are just magnificent… The lighting actually enhances the outlook of the entire city… But how much would the electricity bill actually cost? *ponders…
The amount I eat these days are getting enormous gosh… Better start checking my waistline before…

23/7
Its been a month:)

Thank you... You just made my day

2006-07-19T10:27:00.000+08:00

Elane thanks loads for picking us up and bringing us to Swensen's had loads of fun there :)

Just my luck

2006-07-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

Just my luck…

I thought I was supposed to watch Pirates of the Caribbean with SY but in the end I wasn’t hmmm… My great memory… Or what was I doing when she asked me to watch a movie with her? Well… Never mind… After all Just my luck was hilarious… Actor… Wow… Storyline… Normal but funny…

To a friend… Take care… Where there is a will there is a way right… I’ll still be there no matter what happens…

As far as half of the month goes...

2006-07-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

Orientation week…

Went for registration, got my room Sri Melor 2-10A… That means I’m staying at Sri Melor block second floor room 10 bed A… I have 3other room mates who came from Perak, Johor and Kuantan… There is two bunk beds and my number was supposed to be for the top bunk argh… I don’t like heights… But well… Orientation was bad real bad… The activities just went on and on and on and time seems to pass so slow as if the clock just stopped ticking… The saps was fun though… At times meals have to be skipped just to buy some time for extremely short baths… Taklimats have been transformed into sleeping sessions… Every second of sleep is crucial as we have only a maximum of 2hours sleep a day… How great can that be… It nice getting phone calls every night, its sweet to be exact… But unfortunately my stupid brain cant stay awake and I fell asleep twice I think when I was on the phone… So sorry wei… But how are you to blame someone who sleeps at 3and wakes up at 430right… But how could I do it to some one who stays awake just to call me at 2something right… Bah what am I talking about… The last few days of the orientation was more fun the seniors were nicer, maybe its because they were tired as well… Or maybe they just got sick of torturing us… But I seriously never been so dirty in my entire life… Playing in mud is still cleaner than wearing a stinking dirty shirt for one entire week… Ewww… But everyone was like that cos we were forced to do it… Don’t even think of the stench everyone was letting out… *Pukes…
Was supposed to go home straight after orientation but haven’t even packed… hehhe… Was then supposed to go home at 7am but I couldn’t wake up even after my dad called for the umpteenth time…
Got complained by my mom cos I see her only for two hours while some other people get to see more of me… hmmm… Bah…

First week…
My time table goes like this…
Monday 930am – 1100am
230pm – 430pm
430pm – 600pm
Tuesday 930am – 1100am
1100am- 1230pm
Wednesday 800am – 900am
930am – 1100am
Thursday 930am – 1100am
1100am – 1230pm

The lecturers haven’t really started teaching yet and classes end so early that I had so much time to kill… I was practically free… Hmmm… Maybe im finally free enough to fall sick… Haiz… Down with flu, fever, cough and sore throat… Felt better after visiting the clinic… Everyone seemed to be down with the same sickness… Well… Lack of sleep I suppose…
I was so going to kill on Wednesday when someone canceled something but in the end it was a good thing… Thursday night was great but there were some hiccups here and there… Especially when the accident happened… I want to watch the starting of Superman Returns… but well…

Blog deprivation

2006-07-11T11:50:00.000+08:00

Orientation last week was rather torturous haven’t been sleeping so well…
The maximum of 2hrs a day is definitely not enough for piggy like me…
But the end of the orientation was quite fun… Did enjoy myself a little…
Was so lucky many times to run away from being punished… If not… Haiz…
The food here is not as bad as I heard…
Shall update about it more when I go home on Thursday…
For you information I’m a member of “PBSM” pasukan balik rumah setiap minggu…
Its not that I don’t like the place… Its just that I don’t want to wash my own clothes…
I know it’s lazy of me but well, since when have I ever been hardworking right…
Room mates hail from afar don’t have their pictures or anything cos I don’t have the stuff… But well…
I’m so blog deprived so a few sentences is sufficient to ease my desperate self to blog for a little while in the computer lab… I know I shouldn’t be doing this but then again…

Your presence shall be greatly missed

2006-07-01T18:12:00.000+08:00

Your presence shall be greatly missed…

Was supposed to send JM off at the LRT station until… Hmph… Don’t want us to see you is it… Bwek… When you miss us hug the teddy ya… Or just stare at it then you’ll see the faces of 3very important people ya… Nian, your sis and I… Wakakaka… Don’t lose it ar!!! Shall miss crapping and yakking with you… Should have grabbed you and give you a big big hug last night wei… Haiz… Regret pula…
To a friend, what ever will be will be, don’t think too much, at times go with the flow and you may find something you treasure, but if you don’t it may not be your time yet… But it doesn’t mean you’ll never find it… Faith will bring people together don’t you think…
Met up with some F6 friends last night but didn't really talk much hm... E who's the organiser that didn't turn up in the end... Hmmm... Who's fault... So what should that person do hmm...

WT... I wanna hear your comments... Faster tell lar... Stop keeping me in suspense... Haiz...

YJ had a very great time talking to you… Updated you on some stuff don’t you think… Well… hehehe…
N: )
Safe journey to those leaving…
Haven’t even start packing for tomorrow yet… Haiz… Don’t know what to pack… How how… But there’s definitely a few things I’m bringing there… A giraffe to remember some one who always play with it, a tortoise to remember the tortoise gang, a piggy and an owl… OMG… WTH… I’m bringing so many soft toys and not like I hug them to bed it the first place… Aiks… Hope no one starts calling me a big kid wei… *blush blush...

Nian tommorrow's breakfast is definately on you wei... You were the one who started it right... Wakkaka... Shall claim my meal tmr... wakkakaka... bring more cash ya...

Hopefully i'll fit into Uni life... Hopefully i'll get some one i know as a room mate... Hopefully everything will go well... Hopefully... Hopefully... Well...well...

Tons of people will be greatly missed... Can't blog that often anymore... Haiz...

Too much to do too little time... Too much to buy too little $$$

2006-06-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

Too much to do too little time… Too much to buy too little cash…

- Went for medical check-up, after going to 3places… Bah…
- Went to open accounts at BCB and B. Islam…
- Went to school to certify certs and collect the ones left there…
- Went Am bank to settle some stuff…
- Went 1U to get the card…
- Went ikano shopping...
- Bought two pairs of slacks… Saw so much stuff that I wanted to buy but well…
- Then went 1U to shop…
- Bought even more stuff… Die lor die lor… I’m definitely draining my bank account fast…

Darn exhausted… As you can see laziness have occurred… Lazy to explain much about what happened…
More afraid of what’s going to happen tomorrow… OMG!!! Meeting “mom”… How how…. Wish me all the best ar…
SK!!! I help you gulp down a glass of beer right... So you should belanja me right... wakakaka... cant drink then dont lar...
Aiks my body is definately itching... Argh...

The story of the drunkards and bloated…

2006-06-26T08:54:00.000+08:00

Went to Yue’s house for her birthday party after work… Arrived there rather late but well the night was still young right… Food was great, tons of people made it… Whee the =ve and –ve group reunion… Py for once we didn’t lag behind eh… We are not drunk don’t even seem drunk right… JM got so red just after her first glass… Can’t blame her though cause it was her first time drinking alcoholic drinks… TF lost quite a number of times so quite a few glasses was drank… SK well… Even a whee bit a one mouth can make her bright red and in the verge of puking -_-“… PY this girl can drink wei… Every card game lost 1/2glass of beer had to be gulped down… Erm the beer finished in the middle of the game so it was substituted by Soya bean… Argh… This is where I suddenly started to lose continuously… Sobz… Was so bloated after drinking so much Soya bean… Aiks… S came back with more beer so more drinking session… Haiz… Everyone was in a rather hyperactive mode... Yaking away...
N sorry to keep you worrying ya… And I interrupted your fave match again… Erm found out the very next day again, hehehe… Haiz… What great timing I have eh…

对不起，一路顺风

2006-06-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

Got your msg late last night... But over slept due to lack of sleep the past few days...
Meet up with you when you come back..
Remember to inform me earlier ya...
多多保重，一路顺风哦。。。
The next time i see you hope you don't go thinner ya...
If not bamboo will also be fatter than you... haiz...
Tortoise nian take care k...

:)

2006-06-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

Hope you enjoyed it E... hehehe...
Its great talking to you:)

Yum cha session was rather awkward...
But time well spent with some :)

Stay alive erm... No comments... But other than that :)

Miracles happen

2006-06-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

It only happens when you least expect it to...
1. Erm... Erm... Nvm...
2. I got in omgomg i actually got in...
3. I got the staff purchase card... Whee... Shopping spree even though its only for a week or so... heheh... Anyone wants to go shop at Padini call me ya.. 40%off...

Twist and shout!!!

2006-06-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

Smile smile grin grin giggle giggle um here i come :)
I got in :) tesl-um:):):):):)

Back part2...

2006-06-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

Did anyone miss me… Wakakaka…
Too much to say too little words to describe…
Some things cannot even be described by words…

12/6
Took the Sani express from PWTC to Terengganu.
The bus was so cold wei… Thought I was going to freeze to death…
Definitely didn’t get a good night’s sleep…

13/6
Reached the bus station at 530am.
Waited for the transport to Laguna resort till about 7am
Then had to wait for a few more people until bout 9am
Then waited for the boat to Redang island
Then waited for check-in and lunch…
Haiz so much waiting…
Then the fun began…
Sun, sea and sand…
Magnificent scenary…
What more can I ask…
Then came the dead corals…
Leaving its marks all over my hands and feet…
OOOOwwww…
Felt safe with the life jacket on… It made me have more freedom in the sea…
My fault for not learning how to swim…
Saw an island that looked like a tortoise…

14/6
Saw the sun rise… Wow…
Canoeing is great until a certain extent though…
A friend seemed fine jumping and laughing but went to the dustbin and threw up…
Snorkeling was fun, until the time when I felt as if my ears were stuck…
That irritating buzzing sound…
Fishes swimming by your side… Whee…
Floating corpse whee...
-ve = py and I
+ve = tf and jm

15/6
Time just flies… Every story has an ending…
Time to go home…
Wrong bus wrong time… Just how much can go wrong I wonder???
I’m not the only one blur I see…
Should have asked that some one to fetch us instead of getting cheated by that stupid taxi driver... Ish ish...

Theme song of the trip...
da cheng xiao ai - wang leehom
xian zai hen xiang jian ni - daniel lee

uniform of the trip...
U2 polo tee

definately an unforgetable 4day 4night trip...

Went 1U in the afternoon to pass some stuff and some things continue from there…

Went Ming Tien at night for YC gathering…
Wasn’t really in the mood so was really quiet…
Maybe it’s the lack of sleep…
One thing for sure its not because of the people there...
Mun and Foong I want the pics ar... Faster send it to me ya....

Back...

2006-06-16T20:37:00.000+08:00

Will blog about the trip to Redang very very soon... So much to say so little time...

Somewhere over the rainbow

2006-06-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

Life is back to normal I guess…
Sorry for the commotion caused…
Will be going to Redang on Monday night… Whee… Finally a holiday whee wang wang whee wang wang whee….
somethings are very unpredictable/ unexpected...

凡人人烦

2006-06-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

太多事想，太多事烦
为何身活总不可以平静一点
脑袋就要爆炸了
当你每天与墙壁说话你都会厌倦吧
钱有得看没得用
凡人人烦
太多事想
太多事烦
兴奋便烦恼
开心便伤心
W800i再见吧。。。
可能就是有缘没分吧。。。
用华文是为了不想个朋友再
为我而烦，为我而担心
看你为我而伤心我会内疚的
不想笑，却得笑
开始累了
开始不想去想了
未来会如何
我不知道
我要什么我不知道
大学的路好像茫茫一片
太多问号太多疑问
身活可能总是有波浪吧
若总风平浪静该多好
YJ leave me a free day will you…
Think I need to talk…
Miss ya…

WTH

2006-05-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

Lessons come with a hefty price…
Life is darn fucked up at the moment…
Money is now an important issue…
Not that I don’t have it’s just how I’m getting it out…
Bloody unlucky these days…
Things happen repeatedly on the same thing…
WTH!!!
Don’t ask me how it happened…
No matter how my heart bleeds it doesn’t matter…
No one knows, no one sees…

I can only get you back the exact same thing…
I can’t afford more…
I feel that I’m responsible for getting back the same thing…
Nothing more nothing less…

Another one with crapalogy...

2006-05-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

26/5
Woo hoo... some one finally got to do a perfect side parking... *claps hands... *pops a bottle of champagne... Good for you ya... Quite fast right... The last time i saw you side park... Well... Better stop commenting before you whack me... Bwek...
Forever 21 opened their doors at 7… There was a great big crowd there… Manicure sets were given as door gifts… It’s a very nice pink one… Whee… Thanks for accompanying me there ya… It takes a real guy to stand in a crowd of girls o… Remember that ya… Saw Kimmy on the way back to the shop… Well, I went out of the shop while I was working to get the manicure set so I guess Kimmy caught me red handed… Hehehe… Don’t call me a cheapskate k… I’m just into cute pink stuff…whee…
Went Yumcha With E, SK and ML… Haven’t seen them for quite some time… Erm other than E that is… She came by to visit me just a few weeks ago… Thanks for being there ya E… SK and I worked at the same place but I haven’t met her for quite some time… Haven’t heard much… ML… Only saw her a few times in 1U… Once she seemed so dumbfounded to see me… Erm… nvm… Caught up with some updates even though the session was quite brief especially because someone was late… No prizes for guessing… But was very happy to meet them again…Its been some time… Quite a very long time… E if you read this… I might not be able to make it for the seafood session I’ll explain to you more in detailed when I see you…

27/5
I’m not stupid too…
The movie is very touching…
Imagine your child drawing the picture of you…
As a shadow… Because that is the only time they see you…
“好孩子被你骂道变坏孩子”
I stole money because I wanted to buy an hour of your time…
Truly touching…
Don’t ignore your kids… And don’t nag them too much… Listen to them… Give them a chance to speak eh…

A very unfortunate day… Got in a row… Went to the library… Got caught in a stupid jam for an hour… Couldn’t get tickets for a friend… Made another friend go early for nothing… I’m so sorry wei… But if not because of you I’ll not get the tickets anyway… Was supposed to accompany me in the end had to line up in my place… Sorry ya… Got late to work ran into the shop like mad and bumped into a marketing fella ishish… But fortunately the rest of the day was quite ok or else… *faints…

28/5
Was supposed to go for a steamboat session but it was canceled last minute… I’m actually quite happy that it was canceled because I’m rather broke at the moment… Don’t ask me why… Went walking around with JM in the end… Was supposed to get stuff at Body Shop until we saw the humongous amount of people cramping into the tiny shop… Give up wei… Went TV café for dinner the food there is not bad… Mmmmm… Cheese…. Mmmmm… Better it there more often before I quit because there’s a discount for people working in 1u as long as you show your tag… The ambience is way better than Wong Kok… The portion was filling though the honey dew Sai Mai Lo was quite tasteless… hehehe… Or it was just us eating without skills… *wonders…. Aiks… More fattening food = gaining weight… *bangs head on the wall…

31May coming up... Wanna go eat Baskin Robbins... Anyone wanna join me??? I'll be working nonn shift though so only free from morning till 215... Ice cream anyone???

Dazzling smile...

2006-05-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

The one on the left is Alan Yun... Nice smile eh...wakkakaka

A day well spent

2006-05-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

A day well spent…

The last time I went back to Yuk Chai was quite a few years back… Things have changed a lot since when I was in primary school… Many rules have been lifted… Many places have been renovated and enlarged… The school has been beatified a lot… Many new stuff have been added… Wow… Tmn SEA is definitely nothing compared to YC… A lot of old memories have been brought back… Found out that I’m now closer to those I wasn’t when I was in primary school… Got refreshed by the memory that I used to copy answers from a friend when it comes to my weakest subject BC…
So many memories… So many things have happened there… So many… Even though the teachers don’t seem to recognize me in anyway anymore… Erm can’t blame them though… It’s been a long time… A long long time…
The food there was like… OMG… The prices there are just so low… A maximum of RM3.50 was spent for a drink, noodles, popsicles and honeydew… Wow… Haven’t spent so little to get so much for quite some time…
Went to see Mun’s sister, XS and Nian teach… Never seen Mun’s sis look so strict and angry… XS has a teacher look… Erm, I don’t know how to describe but… He has a teacher look… Oh ya… Today is definitely the first time I saw XS go bright red wei… I always thought him as fair and erm… slightly pale but today… OMG… Blush till his face looks like a tomato wei… Darn funny… Kids these days are just so imaginative… Hmmm… Since when girls and guys cannot be normal friends??? Kids these days think too much don’t they… “ren xiao gui da”… You guys should have seen them rush out of class just wanting to see their teachers “girlfriend”… Yup… Its true that I’m a girl but… (Adapted from a friend’s MSN nick)Kids… They are so cute …yet… they can be little devils… looks can be deceiving… wakkakaka… Nian’s class was even more hyperactive… OMG… The kids are just so… IMAGINATIVE… Wonder do they have any other definition other than gf’s and wives…. Wakakkaka… Hilarious looking at them and listening to their conversations… Weird having them stare like an alien...
Kids are just… Cute yet… At times when you listen to them speak… You’ll wonder weather you want to laugh or cry… They’ll stare and glare at you at curiosity when they see some one who comes to visit their teachers… Extremely hyperactive… Omg… Just found out the teachers think the same way as well… OMG… Wkakakka... You guys should have saw them chasing after the car when we left wei... So dramatic... Darn funny...
Nah thanks loads lar… Tour guide… You should be happy right… now all the teachers are focused on you… Darn famous liao lor…wakkakak… Definitely and memorable birthday for you right…wakakakka… Twenty liao lor… wakkakka… Tai kor chai lor…wakkakkaka… You should like the tortoise right... Resemblems you...wakkakka

Safe journey...

2006-05-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

Send them off at the airport but will see my host father again in September...
He'll be in Malaysia for 2months then for some Malaysia as a 2nd home program...
Not a very emotional farewell like the one I had in Japan...

N ar -_-""""""""""""""

The unfortunate events of Roo

2006-05-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

The unfortunate events of Roo
1. People from the Redang insist that we haven’t make the full payment when we already have… Still wondering what went wrong…
2. The renewal of driving license have been postponed uncountable number of times… It took quite a while till I finally got it done…
3. Got screamed at by a friend for I don’t know what...
4. Dropped something that I shouldn’t have…
5. Didn’t do settlement yesterday don’t know will I get a love letter but at the moment I don’t feel like thinking anymore cos there are way too much to think about than this…
6. Not feeling so well at the moment... Gonna fall sick soon...

What more unfortunate events to happen I don’t know… I don’t want to know…

I'm so dead!!!

2006-05-20T17:43:00.000+08:00

I’m so dead!!!
I’m so dead!!! X200000000
Accidents happen but still…
How could I if only I clung onto it in time…
If only…
Definitely have to make sure it’s in its normal mode before passing it back to the owner
I would rather drop anything that’s mine then other people’s…
At least if its mine the feeling of guilt is not there…
But now… Heart ache + sad + GUILT!!!
How could I!!!
Haven’t inform the owner yet…
I’m afraid and embarrassed to inform, but I definitely should…
HOW COULD I!!!
If only life was a bed of roses...

19th May
Went to an Indian temple and a Chinese temple, Chinatown, Pasar Seni… Never knew how to bargain until today… Rushed like mad to work... So many weird things happened today… First a shop called me up to start a part time job… I was like I deferred the job like 1/2year ago??? Then came a call from Laguna Beach Resort… Apparently we haven’t clear the payment yet… I was like WTH???
Went for yumcha session with LY, CK and N… Got a call from home at 12sharp… I seriously thought I was going to get it… But in the end, my mom was ok with me returning at 1220am… She didn’t even say anything… It was my dad who was making a big fuss… So no harm was done hehehe… P/S thx ya N for speeding like mad to send me back… Sorry or any problem caused…

18th May
Went souvenir shopping with JM… Thanks loads for accompanying me all the way… Wow... I never knew i was so inspiring... *faints... very touched when i first opened the file but after that felt that it was hillarious... Thanks loads wei...

Hyperactvity...

2006-05-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

Slept for two hours last night and I definitely feel more energetic than when I slept for more than 6hours… I feel more hyperactive than ever… What on earth is wrong with me… Hmmm… *wonders… Or was it the caffeine in the coffee which otosan offered??? Bah… walalala… Got a day off on Saturday thanks to a friend… Hmmm… Since you insist that I owe you a kiss… So let everyone see that I kiss you ya… Here on my blog… Muaks Muaks… There your kiss have been granted so I don’t owe you the kiss anymore right… Wakakaka…

Oops another mistake to the friend It’s the wrong song…
It’s supposed to be Five for fighting’s superman…
Hehehe no wonder the lyrics sound a little different…
It doesn’t matter much now since you seem happy now… Erm more like today…

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
Well it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
I'm only a man in a phoney red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me

I'm only a man in a phoney red sheet
I'm only a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a phoney red sheet
And it's not easy…
It's not easy to be me

Touch down...

2006-05-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

Finally meeting them…

Reached the airport 1/2hour earlier due to anxiety…
The plane landed at 5.36pm…
They didn’t change a bit…
Still looked exactly the same…
Can’t believe that they are already 70
Still chirpy and nice as usual…

Still in the sense of duck and chicken talk…
My fault for not studying Japanese more in detailed…
Better start studying more since they’ll be here for a longer period of time in future…

Road signs at times aren’t any help and very misleading too…
We saw a road sign heading to KLCC followed it and ended up in Bangi -_-“
Otosan and okasan had to wait for about an hour for us… *blush *blush…

Had dinner with them at some restaurant near their residence…
I don’t really like their tour guide…
I feel that he is treating them more like an ATM machine…
You don’t order food for 10pax when there are only 6…
You don’t have to order sharks fin, sea cucumber and all sorts of extremely exp food k…
They always eat it in Japan… You should have ordered some authentic Malaysian food…
I wonder how much the meal must have cost… About RM400++ I suppose….
They are rich I know but they don’t waste food nor any other stuff…
Ordering too much is wasting as well k…
They packed up the left over in the end…
That’s what I like about them, rich but yet not spendthrift…
But that tourguide is just yer... Rich doesn't meant should be taken advantage of...
Their apartment in pnb darby park is great many nice facilities there… Everything is there in an arms length...

Re: To a friend

2006-05-15T12:32:00.000+08:00

Nah this should be the correct one I guess... Nah the song that is stuck in your head... Sorry lor... Blur till found the wrong one... hehehe

Chicago - You're The Inspiration Lyrics

(P. Cetera/D. Foster)
You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul
CHORUS:
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring felling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more that I need you
And i know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And i know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart in my soul
CHORUS

Recent happenigs...

2006-05-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Wesak Day…
There are honest people out there…
Accidentally collected RM50 less from a customer and I didn’t know about it…
That customer actually went out of the shop and after that came back in just to ask weather did they give RM50 less to me… I was really fortunate to meet people like them… Or else I would have to pay that amount…

Saturday, 13May
Happy birthday CBQ… Sorry lar… Have to call you cbq cos I don’t know how to spell your name hehhehe… Can’t blame me right… A bit hard to pronounce your name… Hehehe…

Sunday, 14May
Happy Mothers Day…
Hope a friend will cheer up…

Monday, 15 May
Shall meet my host parents in a few hours time… They’ll be staying in PNB Darby Park KL…

To a friend

2006-05-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

To a friend…
Life is never easy…
Talk to some one k… It’ll make you feel better

Erm this song might suit you… Erm till some extent…
No one’s superman…

. : 3 DOORS DOWN - KRYPTONITE : .

I took a walk around the world to
ease my troubled mind
I left my body lying somewhere
in the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
side of the moon
I feel there's nothing I can do
yeah

I watched the world float to the dark
side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
to do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

Chorus:
If I go crazy then will you still
call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
there holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
but still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head if
not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you
back on solid ground

Chorus (x3)

And the song that got stuck into your head…

Girl I can't let you, do this,
Let you walk away
Girl how can I live through this
When you're all I wake up for each day baby

You're my soul and my heart's inspiration
You're all I got to get me by
You're my soul and my heart's inspiration
Without you baby what good am I

I never had much going
But at least I had you
How can you walk out knowing
I ain't got nothing left if you do baby

You're my soul an my heart's inspiration
You're all I got to get me by
You're my soul and my heart's inspiration
Without you baby what good am I
What good am I

Baby, I can't make it without you
And I'm, I'm telling you honey
You're my reason for laughing, for crying,
For living and for dying

Baby I can't make it without you
Please I'm begging you baby
If you go it will kill me, I swear it
On my soul and courage

You're my soul and my heart's inspiration
You're all I got to get me by
You're my soul and my heart's inspiration
Without you baby what good am I
Oh what good am I
Oo-oo-oo-oo....

Exhausted... But that wasn't the end ...

2006-05-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

Went for badminton session today... Whee that was really fun...
The food after that was great but it was too filing though...

So many things was to be done during work...
Hands and legs going to melt soon...
Then came Alan Yun... Wah... Heart melted by his smile... Wakkaka...
Nice things are food for eyes k...

Omg... JM told me that it was today not tommorrow...
Heart thumping like mad...
A good thing I didn't get heart attack or else... We'll know who to blame ya...

Was so exhausted after work that I could sleep eyes wide open...
Until i read the papers properly... It said TODAY not TOMMORROW!!!
Sleepyness just faded away with a wink of an eye...

In the end the website said that the results will only be out on the last week of June... Faints...
Aiks false alarm...
Haiz...

At the moment the feeling to sleep hs faded away... Aiks... HOw how... Tommorrow will be looking like a zombie at work agian... aiks...

Give me a break

2006-05-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

Give me a break…

无意中惹了祸，害人发脾气，害人丢饭碗，
惭愧总觉得是我的错，虽并不完全是因我而起

想去玩却似乎太多人太多是发生
不想做了却还有东西烦
在家里，
天天被人烦，就要被烦死了

累却没得休息

钱钱钱啊。。。
实在太穷了。。。
有却不能用。。。眼看没得用。。。
五月三十号快来啊。。。

Please stop asking me about things that happened more then 1/2year ago…
My memory has always been failing me…
Please don’t expect me to remember every single thing I’ve ever done during my school life thank you…
At times when you leave its history… Can’t people just let it be that way…
Stop asking me things that are too long back...

Saw Alan Yun from Gubra…
He came to PDI
His smile is still enchanting and mesmerising but he definitely looks better on screen…
All models are hunchback or what???

Omg omg omg omg

2006-05-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

My host parents will be coming down from Japan!!! Whee!!! Its been 4years since I last saw them… I miss them so much… I wanted to visit them this year but due to some unforeseen circumstances… I’m so looking forward to meeting them again!!! Aiks… But might not have enough leave for Redang trip… aiks… But well… We’ll have to see how things goes right… Cos I seldom see them… What should I get for them??? I should get them a few things for them to bring home right… Wonder where will they be staying??? I know they loved ritz carlton but I’m not sure weather will they be there??? Shall update about it when they reply my mail…

>5/15(Mon) MH # 053 Departure 12:00 from Osaka
> Arrival 17:30 at KUL
>
>5/22(Mon) MH # 052 Departure 23:45 from KUL to Osaka.

Its great meeting you guys again

2006-05-08T23:37:00.001+08:00

E thanks for dropping by, I’m still sorry that I’m not able to make it the other day so you had to come all the way just to pass me my pendrive. Its great talking to you… I haven’t been meeting up with the gang after I started working… Our timetables just don’t seem to be able to click… Haiz… Sacrifices have to be made for extra income… Haiz… Seriously got tons of catching up to do eh… CK, WT… How have you guys been haven’t been meeting you guys for god knows how long!!! YJ!!! I haven’t even been taking to you for like the past few months… Aiks… And we are so near compared to Lish, Suetz and SI who are so far away… Haiz… Better start meeting up very soon ya… The only way I seem to get updated is to read your blogs… Aiks… E ar… Update your blog a bit lar…
SK OMG!!! You lost so much weight!!! How did you do that??? Haven’s seen you for quite long as well… And we work under the same roof… Haiz…
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!

Its great meeting you guys again

2006-05-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

Going bananas

2006-05-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Why must I see you?
Why must you appear?
Can’t you be invisible or just disappear?
I was going to run away when I saw you… Fortunately you didn’t see me…
So many unneeded problems have been avoided Whoo hooo…
Not like I want to see you anyway… Bwek…
Go far far away…
If only I could cast a spell to turn you into dust or something like that…
If only…
That’s why at times going to the market in the morning has its cons…
Ishish…
But well…
Bah…

Sienz..
Working life… BORING!!!
ZZZ… zzz… ZZZ…
How how…
Some one, some how… Find some way to spice up my life…
I’m becoming bored…Drowning in boredom...
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ…zzzzz…
Weiwei... Since when i'm sticking to you... Bwek...
Look clearly to find the truth k... Bwek...
Wlalalla

Hmmm… Or maybe I just woke up from the wrong side of the bed… Bahbahbah

Somethings... Sometimes... Walalala

2006-05-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

It doesn’t matter what other say as long as you know what you are doing
It doesn’t matter what others will and would do as long as you know who the one in your heart is
Age is a matter to me… But now I know… But it didn’t seem to be a problem to me last time…
Hmmm… Or is it maybe friends and relatives are in different categories…
It’s the heart that counts
Money is important yet it’s not the most crucial issue at times
To trust or not to trust…
People can be so intimidating at times, don’t you think
At times things can’t be changed but only can be improved
At times people are who they are no matter how irritating how nice
Many things are easier said than done
To like or to dislike is only a choice away
But yet at times you’ll be caught in the middle
Arrogance and cockiness is just intolerable
I so want to strangle you at times but well…
At times you seem so alone and lonely…
How how… You are making me feel torn apart…
It’s better to slack on others than towards yourself
To have higher requirements towards yourself is better than hoping more on others
Cut hair seems as if I never did, at least to others that is…
But as long as I feel more comfy I don’t care lar… wakakkaka…

It's flying shuttlecocks...

2006-05-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Went for an hour of badminton session with N, CK and LY… It’s been sometime since I last went for badminton… Erm it was like 1/2year ago… Skills gone rusty weight gone up… Erm don’t bother to imagine ya… But it was rather disastrous… Can’t hit the shuttlecock properly, can’t aim properly… Skill plunged to its minimum… Bah…
But it was fun playing… Whee… Jumping around… Fun fun fun… whee… Next time call me ya… I wanna play again… Wakakka… Exercising can make people lose weight right… Badminton is an exercise right… Whee… I still remember my old badminton kakies… PK,Hx and SK… Hey its been quite a long time since I last played with you guys… Find one day we go together ya…
Went for dim sum session after the game… Hmmm… eating right after sports makes weight gain faster right… Omg omg… Another indulgence… Aiks…
Oh ya… N ar… Next time don’t try to murder me ya… Accidents happen I know… But you did it on purpose right… Bwek… This time a tiny scratch next time… erm… Better don’t be a next time ya… I’ll try to dodge from your racket more carefully ya… Bwek...

Privacy is important... Treasure it k...

2006-04-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

I feel that it’s unethical to print posts from other people’s blog to be distributed… I feel that things on a blog should be left and only be talked about there… I’m not going to do anything I feel that is unethical k… Left your pakguaness at bay k… Go away… Stop your backstabbing k...
I want no more tricks... I'm not even sure should I believe you this time??? Are you trustable... I'm not sure... Please stop making me get into trouble ya... May god bless me... wakkakaka...

Screwed up... ishish

2006-04-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

I felt quite calm and went back to school to get some backup… Well… I love school enjoyed the company loved some of the teachers there… Its nice talking to them once again… They gave me some very funny and helpful tips… I think their words were the most soothing to me… hehehe… Well, some teachers commented that my skirt was too short (its already knee length), too many buttons down, earing too flashy because it is dangling…
Only 25people was there for the interview… There were people from Melaka, Johor and other places in Selangor… Waited for an hour or so… The only person that I knew there was Rachael…. I saw Pn Julie there so I was quite happy to see someone I actually know… The longer I waited the more anxious I was… Then there came my turn… I was the 3rd last…
I only went in for like 3minutes and I was done… I was asked to describe myself… I was talking so much crap about me and forgot to say anything about guides and clubs… Then of all things I told her I blogged and she started to ask me about blogging and why I blog and erm… I think I was talking about the blog most of the time in the end… Then she asked for my results… When I told her my MUET… She was still ok… When I told her my STPM results… She said ONLY!!! I was like… Oh gosh, I’m so dead… then I as asked to describe myself as a teacher… I was starting to babble… Then came the question that I wanted to think that I’m going to die… Any last words??? I was like… Am I dying??? Or am I just kicked out??? AAAAAAhhh… Screwed up… Ish ish… Thanks to results… OMG…. Only is a very strong word k… *faints…
Then went retail therapy with mun… More like crapping session… Thanks loads ya.. I think she’ll be really sick of me… I was more like grumbling for hours… Went to ikano and visited Kluang station… the palce there is not bad… can be seen from far…

stress level high...

2006-04-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

Stress level getting sky high, anxiety level scorching the walls... There’s only about 16hours more to the big day… What if I screw up??? What I my crapperlogy just won’t start pouring out of my mouth??? What if I start to stammer??? What if I just can’t find the right words??? What if??? What if??? Extremely afraid right now… Starting to freak out… hmmm… AAAAAAhhhhhhhh… OMG I just heard that there’s a written test for it… How how??? I haven’t been writing anything right after the MUET test… How how… Its about a year ago… Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh…
Stress aside… Money was easily earned today… Reached there at 8sharp… I was so afraid I would be late because I wasn’t very sure about the exact location... Started at about 830at the registration counter… Collected money then did nothing but lazing around for about an hour or so… Had breakfast… It was cute little pies and cakes… Mmmmmm… Indulgence… Then went to the lobby to continue lazing around… Was going to grow moss there… After that waited for time to pass and there came the time to have lunch… The lunch was great… The poached salmon, steak and asparagus soup was ssoooooooo good… The desserts were even more lip-smacking… OMG… Please don’t talk to me about kilojoules now… The amount of fattening stuff I just ate was well… Nvm… Hey so if anyone ever finds a job like this and needs more people do be kind enough to inform me ya… After lunch played bingo for an hour or so at the lobby, then went to M’s dad’s office… Then lazed around for a few more hours till the dinner reception starts… Wow not a bad way to earn RM80… Thanks loads M… Hey you should have told me to prepare a coat… I was so underdressed… By the way, Carton conference center is so nice… The ambience and all oolala…

25/4/06
Went to uptown with colleagues it started drizzling but it was a good thing it didn’t pour very heavily or else… The food there… OMG… It tasted rather badly way below average… Its been quite a long time since I went to mamak like place and it was so hot and stuffy… Don’t laugh at me k, bwek… I know im rather weak in the childcare department… Erm more like zero knowledge in that field… But still practice makes perfect right… Hehehe… Sat in the car that N drove… What glory eh… I feel so lucky… I reached there in one piece… Wakkaka… jkjk… don’t come whack me… Your driving skills ok lar… Practice makes perfect eh… wakkaka…

Nearly fainted...

2006-04-25T12:17:00.000+08:00

No. Rujukan : PET
Tarikh : 25/4/2006

Wong Yeong Ru
No xx,Jalan Buxx/x, Bandar Utama
47800 Petaling Jaya
SELANGOR

Tuan/Puan,

Temuduga untuk Kemasukan Ke Program Sarjana Muda Pendidikan (Tesl) Semester 1, Sesi 2006/2007

Dengan hormatnya merujuk perkara di atas sukacita dimaklumkan saudara/ saudari menghadiri temuduga seperti berikut :

Tarikh & Hari
: 24/04/2006 (Isnin)
Masa
: 09:00 pagi
Tempat
: Le Meridien Kota Kinabalu, Jln Tun Fuad Stephens
Sinsuran, Kota Kinabalu, 88000 Sabah.

Today is 25/4 omg... if i didnt get the pos laju letter i think i would have fainted on the spot... What a mistake...

I'm getting sick...

2006-04-23T11:25:00.000+08:00

I’m sick of being the goody two shoes….
I’m sick of listening to constant nagging…
I’m sick of rules and regulations…
I’m sick of smiling and laughing when I don’t feel like it…
I’m sick of talking to fake people…
I’m sick of listening to backstabbing…
I’m sick of working…
I want a break, can I can I???
I’m sick of being pinned down…
I’m sick of losing the ability to choose…
I’m sick of listening…
I’m sick of being a puppet…
I’m sick of this lifeless life…
I’m sick of this routine life…
I’m sick of people saying one thing and doing another…

Its a love and hate thing...

2006-04-23T01:38:00.001+08:00

I miss my classmates and I miss school…
Whee, whining like a kid as usual… Its been a long time since I meet them and its happy to be able to see and chat with them once again…

What’s wrong this time???

Last time it was about safety this time it was wrong timing??? WTH??? Wrong timing??? I’m expected to fall sick and get some muscle ache after jogging??? What sort of excuse is this??? First you start nagging that I didn’t get the interview… When I get it you start thinking and preventing the worst to happen??? Since when jogging became a bad thing??? Who was the one who was complaining that I was gaining weight and moving too little??? Blame in on the most illogical stuff this time… So what will it be the next time??? The sky might fall or the earth might be on fire??? WTH… More and more lame excuses just to keep me at home??? I haven’t been going out as often as I used to k… Its not that I’ve got nothing to do.. But its because I’m getting sick of those nagging k… I’m already 20… Can I just have I little more space??? Can I??? Can I???

You gain some you lose some...

2006-04-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

You gain some you lose some…

Some things are better off the way it is...
Some people are better left as friends…
Some things are better found early than late…
Some things are better left unknown…
Human will never know what faith lies for them…
Sometimes stagnant is a good thing…
For the happy, for the sad…
No worries, not tears were shed…
Maybe its not deep enough I suppose…

When you think life is depressing…
Suddenly there comes a bit of hope…
The joy comes after the pain…
The joy seems to be more than the pain…
Erm… More like an ant bite hehehe…

At times I ask myself…
Why am I so gullible…
I seem to take in every word that anyone tells me…
It seems that people are getting harder to be believed in these days…

I dislike choosing sides…
I dislike listening to people back stabbing each other…
Yet it’s not a choice for me to choose…
Unfortunate… but it happens everyday…
I want to see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil…
Yet words are usually easier said than done…

Hopefully a friend will be able to solve and diminish the problems that she is facing with her family now...
I do not know who is to blame...
I just hope things will go well for her...

I talk the walk more than I walk the talk…
Better start changing and walk the talk more often…

Lets pray that everything will come out well…
I’ll speak in proper English…
Live without the writer’s block on the 27th April…
Speak without stammering…
And not cluck like a chicken…
I badly want to get in…
Hmmm… Better start looking, talking and acting like a teacher eh…
Just hope that I’ll be able to get in…
Better start speaking in proper English and not in manglish…
Start writing properly and not in short forms…

Whee…
Shall be a little richer on Wednesday…
Got a job in Bukit Bintang for a day…
A friend got my the job... Thanks loads...
Its for some kind of fair...
Details will only be given tommorrow though...
The pay is not bad and the food is provided…
I just hope that the people there are nice and friendly…

Jealousnya...

2006-04-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

My dream phone has just became the most owned phone among my friends... Ish ish... Shouldn'y have been promoting it so much... Now I see it everywhere other than by my side... Sobz... Haiz...
Can't balme them for getting it though... Since it is sooo perfect... Got the looks, got the assets... What more can you ask for from the phone... Right...

the surveys i did due to boredom

2006-04-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: February 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.
Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing.
When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it.
It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.

Your strength: Your warm heart

Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions

Your power color: Black

Your power symbol: Musical note

Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable.
Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas.

You would make an excellent:

Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director
City Manager - Judge - Lawyer
Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person
School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster

The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's Your Ideal Career?

You Are 44% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Your Eyes Should Be Green

Your eyes reflect: Striking attractiveness and danger

What's hidden behind your eyes: A vivid inner world

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

You Are 60% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Your Mood Ring is Red

Excited
Energized
Adventurous
Ready to go

Mood Ring Generator

A year before, a year after...

2006-04-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

Not exactly a year but well… Many many things have changed… Rules were tighter then… The teachers were more strict and irritating then… More rules were made to be followed…
It rained before the event then… It rained when the event was about to start now… We only had people from our school… They had outsiders and SI’s… We had rent chairs… They got to borrow… The HM was more supportive now... That idiotic pighead became less picky…
We had a very supportive crowd… Hey what do you expect… They were all from our own school then…. The scouts were still kind and supportive as usual… I still feel embarrassed when I see V and ZL… Maybe it’s because they have done a lot for us last year and this year as well… Hmmm… Still had to work with them this year due to the unforeseen rain fall… I never thought I’d ever work with them anymore after f6…

Started extremely late this year due to Mother Nature… How could you be so cruel to do this twice to us… Once before once during… Did you know how hard these people work to get everything done and you just shatter their work by sending clouds over to sprinkle raindrops…
The dance is way better this year compared to last…. More power and the moves were way sexier… LV still as bitchy as ever… You should have seen her move wei… Hurts the eye… My poor eye… AAAAhhhh…

I missed YL… Today I was definitely reminded why she has always been the senior that I always look up to… Or maybe its just “yi dai bu ru yi dai”…

Some have definitely grown… Many changes can be seen in the way they do their work… Some for the better some for the worst… A friend was very straight forward when It came to comments… Personally I was rather taken aback when he actually said that… But thinking twice… It’s a very good thing that some one would actually be so frank and straight forward don’t you think… People like these are very hard to find nowadays… I have to agree that discipline have gone down tremendously… At times its not that we can help it… Some things were very unorganized… Well… Things will never be 100% smooth flowing but well… Oh ya… That fella also suggests that we shouldn’t have the gathering in April in future so that we’ll not have any problems with the weather… Will blame it on the weather I suppose…

I feel that last year’s gathering is more like a start and a stepping stone to the juniors… At least they had a chance to see and know how and what its like to organize one… There will always be things that I would regret that I didn’t get a chance to do during the last gathering but well… Time will never turn back and I can only look forward and look back at a time or two…

想念有希望有目标的身活
想念曾拥有的感觉
想念曾拥有的时光
想念只能成为回忆
回忆总是最美好的。。。

Am I extremely aggressive??? Someone just told me that I’m an aggressive person just now… Hmmmm… Am I??? Am I??? The way people work differs in one another... I feel that no two people should be compared but yet... People tend to compare... Haiz... 人比人气死人啊！！！

很多时候让过去成为过去是好事
很多时候前人不顾后人事是好的
很多时候不是不想管是无能为力
有时候看人堕落不是不想管而是管不了
有时候离开了就得离开不该回头管往事
就当我没责任感算了吧。。。

E thanks for the Easter chocolates… Thanks for the play tickets as well… YJ sorry I can’t make it for your Easter thing at your church this year… Its been a long time since I last spoke to you…

Wondering

2006-04-12T22:31:00.001+08:00

To trust or not to trust...
To believe or not to believe...
To feel cheated...
To feel like a dumbo for being so trusting...
Hmm...
Cannot judge books by covers???
Innocent looking yet not so???
Wonders...

Life may go even more bitter when that two leaves...
Less and less frank and honest people around... Ish ish...

Gubra...
With moral values yet...
A little lost at many times...

Everytime i talk about a girl...
Another girl with the same name will call me up...
Is this some kind of sign???
Wakaka...
OMG i'm starting to become superstious...
Bad sign... Bad sign...
难道她是情敌吗？？？
咳。。。又胡说八道了。。。walalala....

Praying that it won't rain on 15th April...
I now how frustrating it feels like to prepare hard and yet get a down pour...
I hope that history will not repeat itself and that everything will go fine for them...
Hope they like the suprise installed for them...
Hmmm... I wonder how'd the meet up with the teacher and ex-treasurer go by???
Wonder was the problem solved???
Wonder was the amount recovered???
Still wondering... hehehe

2006-04-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...

2006-04-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

How can people change their mood in just a few second??
Why are people so fake at times???
Why can feelings towards something / someone change in a very short time???
I pity a friend who had to pay a sum of money for the second time… I’m not the one who jinxed you k… I’m INNOCENT!!! I’m INNOCENT… Wakaka… I pity your purse… I pity you…
I pity those who get scolded and cursed by E for erm… Nothing
I dislike the fakeness in some people…
At times its easier to forgive and forget…
Most of the times ignorance is bliss yet…
Peace is a precious thing…
Hate is a fearful thing…
Ish ish…

To Ex-guides and Rangers

2006-04-10T10:51:00.000+08:00

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Date: 15 April Saturday
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2006-04-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

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Crap...

2006-04-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I left out something yesterday... It was so funny looking at kw getting stuck in his seat when he wanted to get his bill... Hx great job wakaka... It feels as if i brought a child out for dinner... The kid that says... Yer... This fish stinks and likes the taste after he eats it... The kid same "kid" said yer I don't like corn... Weiwei... Corn is nice k... Walalala

Omg temper can raise in a tiny provoke... Flames of fury can be felt due to a tiny little prank... Haiz... Its a good thing that things seemed to have returned to normal after a while... Al i pity you...

Tons of stuff happened...

2006-04-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

I’m not a morning person… So waking up early makes me a zombie… Whee… Walking zombie… I practically needed to use toothpicks to stop my eyes form shutting down as I type this… But well people like me who have such great memory should type things down immediately before it fades away…
Hmm.. Scanner stock take at ikano wasn’t that bad after all… finished real fast because I was in the same group as a marketing fella… Marketing people get to scan less things…wakkakaka good for the extreme lazy me..walalala… finished at 10:30wakakaka… Went to curi tulang and visit B after finishing… Whee I’m just so lucky got caught red handed when chatting with B by a marketing fella just because B attracted attention by screaming KANGAROO out loud… Haiz…
Got complimentary coffee from B… Thank you very much… Muaks Muaks… Made the rest of the people green with envy wakkakaka… I’m evil… hmm… walalala… Ate lunch with an odd marketing and a gorgeous one… Hmm… Two worlds apart eh… Hmmm… Coffee tastes good… walala
Got caught red handed for the second time by the same person… Whee how lucky can I be… wth…
Celebrated JM’s birthday at sushi king… Hmm… Hope she enjoyed… Erm even though quite odd at times… Wei… Wei… Believe me I didn’t do it on purpose… I’m INNOCENT!!! I’m INNOCENT!!! DON”T WHACK ME!!! DDDDDDOOOOOONNN’TTT… We seemed to have set the cake on fire due to the extreme amount of candles... Even the waitress and the next table were staring at us as if we were setting the place ablaze...
JM big girl liao lar... have to learn how to behave yourself... Be good and sensible... Wakaka... Hmm talking like a mom liao... OMG... Bah... Hope you had tons of fun and enjoyed the extremely smoky cake ya... wakkaka

The way to live...

2006-04-05T19:46:00.000+08:00

Lazing around... Listening to music... Read good books... Watch good movies... Eat and sleep... Whee... This was what i was doinng for the entire day... walalala... This is the way life should be right...

OOOOOOOwww...

2006-04-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

OOOOOOOOoowwwwwwww... Arms and legs hurt... OOOwwwww... Should have put on sun block... Sobz...

Cheng Beng

2006-04-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

I’ve forgot how great it was looking at kids playing football at the field, coconut trees, bamboo, palm trees passing by as you drive by until today when I got reminded by the scene outside the car window… Its soothing looking at kids playing football at the field… Coconut trees, lemang stalls, sugarcanes, and cows trotting by the roadside… Its been some time since I remembered that these things exist (erm, literally)…Looking at the clouds and the sky is great as well… Maybe it’s a good thing that I didn’t renew my expired driving license… I didn’t drive back to negeri sembilan this time… ehhe.. Didn’t get to “piao yi” at the “13 curves”… But well I closer to nature… hehehe
Going back for cheng beng is fun… Whee… Can get a tan, can eat great food… What more can I ask… Its nice getting to see your uncle, aunties and cousins once in a while… To see how they have become… Get updated I suppose… Getting a tan after turning fair… I like being tan, I miss being tan… Purposely wore shorts and in the end got burnt instead of tan… Haiz… Now my arms and legs are bright red… My skin hurts… Poor skin… The food is still great… Whee… yong tau foo, vegetable pau… As usual food seems to taste better when its from hometown… Wonder why??? Hmm…

2 new fellas and 45minutes of darkness...

2006-04-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

Two new fellas came today a girl and a guy… The girl a little erm… Jumpy would you call it… Then the guy extremely quiet yet very very hardworking… I bet his the most hardworking person in the entire shop now… The guy was from Mid Valley because their shop is under renovation at the moment… So hardworking wei… We are like only giving 10% of his effort… Now I see why their sales there is so good… Weiwei… Don’t force other people to say I’m pretty when I’m not lar… Words that don’t come from the heart don’t count… Bwek…
The power suddenly went out at about 930… Didn’t return until 1015… Cis was supposed to be able to go home early yet.. Our gate was electric operated so we can’t leave because the door can’t come down… It took quite a while for E to find some one to close it… Yet in vain… In the end he called some one and that some one told him how to… After the gate was closed half way here comes the electricity… Effort wasted don’t you think… Haiz… Can’t go home early in the end… Cis…
To the friend that was watching ice age… Were you still in the cinema when the electric was out??? So what happen… How how??? Tell me tell me…
I believe that gender is not an issue when it comes to teaching and cooperating… Is it so hard or shy to ask someone another gender to teach or work with you??? Hmmm… *wonders… Or maybe its just me… I wonder…

Choices...

2006-04-01T11:56:00.000+08:00

1.MT06 PENDIDIKAN (PENGAJARAN BAHASA INGGERIS SEBAGAI BAHASA KEDUA)
2. KT06 PENDIDIKAN (PENGAJARAN BAHASA INGGERIS SEBAGAI BAHASA KEDUA (TESL)
3.SY01 TEKNOLOGI (MAKANAN)
4. SA02 KOMUNIKASI
5. PS02 BACELOR SAINS (KEPUJIAN) BIOLOGI
6. MS12 SAINS DENGAN PENDIDIKAN
7. KT11 PENDIDIKAN (BIOLOGI)
8. KA47 SAINS SOSIAL DAN KEMANUSIAAN (KOMUNIKASI MEDIA)

guang liang, yue ding

2006-03-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了

The glutton me...

2006-03-31T20:14:00.000+08:00

Baskin robbins 31... MMMmmmmmmmmmmm... Whee wang wang whee wang wang whee... 31%discount today... So bought a pint size one... Indulgence... Erm so sinful... More weight gained... Oh gosh...

Another one gone...

2006-03-31T19:47:00.000+08:00

L’s last day today… He had a wonderful day today I suppose… Miracles happen when you least expects it to… Don’t you agree… The Hang Ten girl made your day… wakakaka… There’s no point telling the whole story for the umpteenth time because it have been repeated for zillions of times… Hope you’ll find your own “tong hua” and “tian tang” ya… No need to sing with a torchlight shining at you in a tiny corner anymore right… wakkaka… All the best in everything you plan to do and want to do in future…

Super tired...

2006-03-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

Drop dead tired after 15hours of work!!!
Started at 7Am ended at 1015pm...
I don't want to go ikano for scanner stock take... Cis

One is not guilty until proven… yet…

2006-03-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

It is true that one shouldn’t be said as guilty until proven but yet at times when things seems to be pointing onto one party makes me feel like jumping into conclusion… I feel like strangling her… It is not easy to get that amount of money… It has never been easy to even get the approval to get the money… Have you ever tried so hard just to get a stupid approval??? Have you ever practically screamed at someone just to get something done??? Have you ever faced pig head and negotiated with him in a very bad tone??? Have you ever walked shop to shop trying to get sponsorship… Have you ever forced many people to fork out their own money to pay for something that they don’t really have to??? How could you betray our trust towards you… How could you as a treasurer instead of keeping money in the end taking it as your own… How could you be a traitor to your own society, erm in a way… It is not easy to earn an amount like that k… How many people’s effort have been wasted due to your greed… I don’t understand how a person that have a very creditable record in school will actually do a thing like that… To keep the money from school might have been a big mistake since it gave you the opportunity to take it as your own… I planned for the future yet you ruined it… I knew that funding projects would be harder in future so lots of savings was done last year to ensure that they had enough for this and next year… Yet…
Did you know that you have made the teacher feel very responsible for this and made her sleepless and restless… Do you know the circumstances… Do you know how upset we are towards you… I have always thought that you have a very strong religious background and yet now… How could you… I don’t want to get involved in any of this but yet its not really my choice anymore… I feel that when I retire from it meaning I will not involve myself into anything that has to do with it… Yet… 人在江湖身不由己… MF do allow me to state that I’m not blaming nor angry at you nor your board…

Babbling.. bla bla bla

2006-03-28T19:04:00.000+08:00

I feel useless at times… Erm most of the time to be exact… I know too little… Don’t know too much… Hmm… Should start learning more stuff…
思念。。。有发神经了。。。真是的。。。超级大傻婆。。。
Commenting on JM’s post… I agree that those people are extremely irritating at times… But those are the people who will ensure us a higher pay don’t you think… At times they seriously ask funny questions… When they are outside the fitting room they’ll ask you where is it… Treat you as a calculator or treat as if you are invisible… Asking where is the mirror when its just right in front of them… Haiz… What to do… This is life… Hope time flies and we’ll be free from it eh…
Today at KFC… N was just so funny wei… Erm… Rather embarrassing I would say… Wakakkaka… I know you read this… You were so darn funny… wakakkaka… “Its so cheap!!!” wakakaka…
V for vendetta… Nice action movie… The fighting scenes were rather unrealistic at times… Think ketchup oozing out from fresh wounds… The rest of it was not bad… worth watching I guess… Hmmm JM so how does it feel to watch movies alone??? Tried it right… Any comments about it???

How true???

2006-03-28T18:40:00.000+08:00

---------------JANUARY--------------------
pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time torecover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.Stubborn.
----------FEBRUARY--------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honestand loyal. Determined to reach goals. Lovesfreedom. Rebellious when restricted. Lovesaggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it.Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friendsbut rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on theinside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
-----------------MARCH--------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy andreserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generousand sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle upfeelings. Observant and assesses others.
------------------APRIL-------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind andsympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Doeswork well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Goodmemory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to lookfor information. Able to cheer evryone up and/ormake them laugh. Able to motivate oneself andothers. Understanding. Fun to be around.Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure andtraveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.
---------------------MAY-----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed andhighly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex.Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves todream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Goodimagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Lovesliterature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislikebeing at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited.
------------JUNE-------------
You've got the best personality and are anabsolute pleasure to be around. You love to makenew friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirtand more than likely have an a very attractivepartner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likelythat you have a massive record collection. Youhave a great choice in films, and may one daybecome a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,you've got the looks for it!!!
----------------JULY--------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and tobe understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easilyconsoled. Honest. Concerned about people'sfeelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.Moodyand easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy attimes.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitiveand forms impressions carefully. Caring andloving. Treats others equally. Strong sense ofsympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges peoplethrough observations. Hardworking. No difficultiesin studying. Loves to be alone. Always broodsabout the past and the old friends. Waits forfriends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressiveunless provoked. Loves to be loved.
------------AUGUST---------------
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds onattention. no self control. kind hearted. selfconfident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hatesnot being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to beloved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld orrestricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.independent. strong willed. a fighter.
------------SEPTEMBER---------------Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tendsto regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving andcaring. Suave and generous. Usually you havemany friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivatesoneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover canunderstand.
---------------OCTOBER-------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Lovesto takes things at the center. Inner and physicalbeauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angryoften. Treats friends importantly. Brave andfearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt butrecovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Doesnot care to control emotions. Unpredictable.Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest ANDsexiest of them all.
---------------NOVEMBER--------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate anddangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towardsyour inner and outer beauty and independentpersonality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotionaland temperamental sometimes. Meets new peopleeasily and very social in a group. Fearless andindependent. Can hold their own. Stands out in acrowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, thegreatest men are born in this month. If you everbegin a relationship with someone from this month,hold on to them because their one of a kind.
---------------DECEMBER---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-lookingperson possible... better than all of these othermonths! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitivein everything. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential inorganizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know. Easily influenced bykindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots ofideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends todelay. Choosy and always wants the best.Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves tojoke. Good debating skills. Has that someonealways on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.Able to show character. one guy/girl kind ofperson. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to gettingcolds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves todress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom showsemotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.Sensitive.

Nah a token for the hug...

2006-03-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

Some thing unfortunate has happened to a friend shall pray that he’ll not need to pay the amount… Since you are so unfortunate I’ll give you a hug lar… So I owe you a hug ya… Claim it when ever you want lar… Only valid for one hug though…Wakakaka

Damn Malu kes...

2006-03-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

Damn malu case…

Daniel the Malaysian idol is extremely short… Hmmm About my height but hx’s size… Well… Very petite… Came to PDI today and I asked for his autograph.. Got the funniest excuse… I don’t sign on white paper… Erm… Well… Erm… Blushes like mad… Hmmm… Short but good looking fella… He practically ran out of the shop after I asked for his signature… He stayed for only a brief 5-10minutes.. .The rest of the superstar members however bought some stuff… I SAW DANIEL… Erm… Still damn yu wei… Cos he didn’t sign and I became the laughing stock of the shop… Ish Ish… Why me…

Whee i'm back...

2006-03-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

Shifted blog due to some reasons… I still like my old blog address more… I’ll miss it… but well… Finally get to go online after the stupid thunder strike onto my poor modem… Haiz… Had to buy a new one… Ish ish… Haven’t get onto the uni application website… Its too packed sobz…

Suffocating... Sobz...

2006-03-19T01:38:00.000+08:00

It’s a tortoise world…

Saw a medium sized tortoise lying in the middle of the road on the way home… Odd but true…

Happiness comes short termed…

I was so happy that I finally got a chance to go for the leehome concert at sunway … In the end got the chance yet cannot go… Mom still pissed with the results I got… So can’t get permission to go… WTH… I’m darn pissed and sad at the moment… The last time I wanted to go it was apparently too far and too dangerous to go… This time when its so near yet… Well… At times I really feel like a butterfly with wings clipped… Can’t do anything without rules and regulation applied… WTH… My ears are going crazy, my bain is not working well, my temper is getting really hot these days… Was so going to scream and scream this afternoon… When will this end… I don’t know… Life is getting as worst as it can get… Life sucks… Call me a spoilt brat if you want I don’t care… I desperately need some space and some air to breath… This is the 3rd day of nagging… Going to die in suffocation of nagging… Looking like a zombie… This is even worst then before the results were out… WTH